Top 5 for the week of September 29th

I am continuing in the pattern of last week and not writing my usual top 5 favorite "things" for the week. Rather, this week, I am going to write My Top 5 Things I Wonder:

1. Heaven: I wonder what Heaven will be like?....the descriptions in the Bible say that it is "...flowing with milk and honey..." (Exodus 3:8) and "the streets are of pure gold..." (Revelation 21:21), but is it literal? We analyze so many things in the Bible, saying it's just symbolism or it doesn't mean that literally. So I wonder, are those descriptions of Heaven literal? I think my heaven would be flowing with sweets and ice cream and the streets would be jeweled with rubies, diamonds, and gold! My heaven would be a dance floor, an amusement park, a shopping mall, a party! It would be fun and exciting and we would all dance and sing and not judge one another. We would all be happy and healthy. There would be no sickness and everyone would be perfect. God's perfect. I wonder what heaven will be like?

2. My Future: I wonder what my future holds? A degree, a career, a family? Will I look the same as I do now? My future according to me would be that of contentment. I just want to be content in the place that I will be. Although I do want "things," like a family, a career, a beautiful home by the beach....I want my future to be bright. I want to have my mind not set on worldly desires but the desires God has for me. I want to be content in his plan. And instead of saying, "I wonder what my future holds?" I want to say, "I wonder what God has in store for me in the future?"

3. How I'm Viewed: What do people see when they look at me? Do they see beauty? God? Happiness? Sadness? Joy? What do they see? I would want them to see God, first off. I want them to see Christ through me, although I still struggle with what that means. I want people to see happiness and understand and that they can trust in me. I want them to see joy in me. I wonder what people see in me?

4. Death: I wonder how and when I'll die? If I could choose to know when I will die, I would take it. I want to know how much time I have left. I want to know when it will happen. Why? I don't know. I guess so that I can cherish the time I have left. I take for granted "my time" here on earth because I don't think I'll die soon; but maybe if I knew, I would cherish it more. I don't know. But what if I found out I had 50 years left? I probably wouldn't cherish the first 49 years at all. If I found out I had 50 minutues left, what would I change about the way I live. I don't think anything. I just wonder when I'll die, I guess?

5. My beliefs: I wonder if I'm believing the right things? Is God real? Is there something out there that is bigger than me? Something I can't see? I wonder if I'm believing the things I do, to hide from reality; if I'm standing behind "my God" in order to not face the problems in front of me. I wonder is the things I'm believing in are a waste of time. I know they are not and that's where my faith comes in....but I still wonder...and I think it's ok to wonder. I wonder if "my God" is real and if He really does love me. I wonder if there is actually nothing out there and when I die, I die. Done. Nothing comes after life and the things here on earth are all we get. It seems sad if that were true, but what if it was? What if all I'm believing in is just a lie and everything I think is true, is false? I wonder if I'm believing the right things?

Ok, there you have it. The things I wonder about....

Hopefully, I'll have a regular post next week.

Once again and as always,

Peace, Love, and Finding 6 bucks in your pocket :D

-kristen.

Top 5 for the week of September 15th

This week I'm gonna do something a little different; instead of writing my Top 5 favorite "things" for the week, I'm gonna write my "Top 5 Things I Want to Do Before I Die!"

1. Have a family- This is probably at the top of most young women's list. We all just want to get married. Don't get me wrong, it's nice not being weighed down by another person and getting to do whatever I want; but we all want that special somone to show up eventually. :) I don't want to start a family within the next 5 years either! If I could have it my way.....I'd get married at like 28 and then see from there when I have kids and so forth. ha. This is at the top of my list because I love family, and having one of my own someday would be so cool!

2. Walk on Burning Coals- I know, I know...I can't see myself doing that either, BUT! I'd like to picture myself walking on burning coals someday because I think it symbolizes and represents strength and courage...at least for me it does :) And truthfully, who can say they've walked on burning coals before?? I think I know like one person....I'd like to be that "one person" for you :D

3. Write a Book- A children's book, a novel, a short story that's published, or even be part of writing a book. I just want to see my name on the front of a book.....

4. Go to Europe- I would love to explore Greece, Spain, France, Germany, Italy, and all the other European countries! I would love that to be my honeymoon but it doesn't have to be :) I'd like to at least once in my life, go to Europe, sit in front of the eiffel tower and have a hot cocoa in one hand and a crepe in the other :D ahh....bliss.

5. Change the World- I know this is hard to do in the 60+ years I have left, but I would at least like to start to change the world. "What change is that?" you may ask. "I don't know yet," I'd respond. I just know that I want to change the world. And that's, that! You may say, "What 19 doesn't want to change the world?!" And I'd respond by saying, "That may be true, but instead of asking questions....help me!" haha. Yes, we can!

Ok, next week is back to normal...just wanted to write a bucket list for this week :D

As always,

Peace. Love. and Captain Crunch Berries.

-krsiten.

Top 5 for the week of September 1st

1. Santa Cruz-- I recently moved to Santa Cruz for school and am loving the area. It's sunny, warm and beautiful! I can honestly see myself living here for the rest of my life! There is a great mix of Redwood forests and beachy environments. It's a great balance and there is so much to do! From the beach to camping, from shopping to making art! Its a great place to live and visit!

2. The beach-- I've literally been to the beach like five days this week and everyday this weekend! The weather was perfect and the water was a great temperature to swim in! The sand is silky soft and I can be out there all day!

3. Baseball-- It's a great sport to jsut sit and watch. Either on TV or at the stadium, I always enjoy watching it. I don't have a particular team that I cheer for, but I love all Bay Area teams! Take me out to the ball game!

4. Doodling-- Good News: I am increasing my drawing skills. Bad News: I don't listen to my professor. :/

5. Anything except Caf food-- Disgusting. That's really all I can say about cafeteria food. It's either over or under cooked; soggy or too hard; stale, old, greasy, chewy....all things food should not be. And to think I'm paying (well, my parents...) 5K for this nasty food....blahh!

You know the drill....

Peace. Love. and Sea Lions.

-kristen.