I definitely learned my lesson on Friday. I wish none of it ever happened and I am deeply saddened by the situation. The TOP 5 things I learned out of this is:
1. I have amazing friends!-- Everyone that was there are good friends! I am sad though that some of my closest friends saw me at the lowest point in my life. They were innocent bystanders that saw someone they thought was a representation of our church, do something that Christians DON'T do. I just hope these amazing friends are amazing forgivers.
2. Alcohol=Bad!-- Yeah sure, it's fun at the time. Just freakin' wait for an hour after your last drink and the next morning! HELL! I tell you! HELL! I swear I never want to drink again! It's honestly not even worth it!
3. Alcohol at a party does NOT look good to people who don't drink!-- It didn't even really look good to me! I still don't know why I participated.
4. Apologies suck!-- So, now I'm in this sticky dilemna and I felt I needed to send apology letters to everyone that was at my party. Saying it wasn't me and I had terrible judgment! Which was true! But it hurts having to admit I was wrong!
5. Having to tell my parents about the whole thing!-- This is pretty much the worst part. A close friend told me that if I don't tell them, she would. So of course I'm gonna tell them! But how? When? Where? WHY?? I decided to tell them over the phone so that I didn't have to face them. They come home this afternoon and I am VERY scared!! Holy crap! But you know what? I deserve whatever punishment they decide to give me! It's all my fault. Some say I'm being to hard on myself. But I honestly think I deserve a HUGE punishment! I do.
So we'll see what happens and hopefully I still have friends after this mess.
Anyways,
Peave, Love, and DON'T DRINK!
-kristen.
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